Well this is awkward. I know I haven't treated you right in a while and I feel bad about it, I really do. DA, can you take me back?

Anywho. It's almost x-mas. I can't stop thinking of standing by my moms bedside, staring down at her trying to smile for her sake. She looked so happy... but she didn't look like my mother. This is the first year without her. She REALLY loved x-mas. That's why I always have. I can't this year... I just can't. But there are things to be happy about. This is the first year I can spend in a steady relationship. If you wanna know more, feel free to ask. There's the other thing as well. I'm finally getting a ps3 and I'm damn happy about it.

So what's it been DA? Two years since I was seriously active? Wow. Hopefully I'll have something for you soon. In the mean time, know I've been drawing.

My grandma just had a heart attack two weeks ago. She quit smoking and now she's really bipolar. It would make me happy if everyone could just say a prayer tonight. I'd be lost without her.

I can't get my beloved off my mind. Funny part... nothing big happened today. I think of her all the time every day and have been obsessing over her for two years now. I'm so happy.

So I play Blackout Ragnarok Online now. - [link]
Anyone care to play with me? I own a guild and I'm looking for people to join. Weather you never played before or been playing every day for years, I'd love to have you. The guild is called 505.

What I want for X-mas... Well I really don't expect anything. If anyone is nice enough, I'd like a drawing of my main avatar in RO and maybe alongside or with my pet. [link] Or if your feeling especially generous, I'm open to any gold donations on gaia as well.

More than for myself, I'd like to give. Let me know what you want drawn and I'll see if maybe I can sketch it out for you for X-mas.

One gift I can let you open early is some drugs. Not really... ut I've always been a huge fan of Designer Drugs and here, take a listen.

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Happy holidays everyone. And thanks for the 7K views.


Funfact: I take showers really hot to relieve stress and then gradually go to freezing to meditate and build on concentration and find inner peace.